She’s got dark spaces
In between the rays of light
Hiding
Seeping through
Fighting to take control
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Whispers Of The Wind
I am like a falcon
Soaring in circles
Aware of my ability to fly
Yet lacking knowledge in which direction I should go
& so I circle
Waiting for the wind
To call out
Follow me
Too Much Love
I always love them more than they love me
They also say I‘m too much
The fire of my passion burns too hot
The love of my heart is too overwhelming; for them
The broken, the hurt, the “unloveable”
But I always see their potential
I know their hearts purest intentions
I know they are made to love
And so I try to show them
I always love them more than they love themselves
I realIze that is where I fail
The fire of my passionate heart is too hot for them to stay around
The love I pour into their hearts is too overwhelming
The broken, the hurt, the “unloveable”
Start to see the potential I always saw
They forget their hearts purest intentions
They forget they are made to love
They forget I tried to show them
I always love them more than they love me
I always love them more than they love themselves
I always loved them more than I loved me
I always loved them more than I loved myself
I was one of them
I know their pain
I was trying to heal myself by helping them heal
They caused me so much pain while I tried to love them
That pain helped me in the end
I no longer am broken
I no longer am hurt
I no longer am “unloveable”
I realize I have always had all the pieces I needed
I was always able to heal myself
I have never stopped being love
I thank them for teaching me my lesson
I will always love them more than they love me
Modern Day Mother Goose Tale
She sat
And she waited
As patiently as she could
And you played with her heart
Because you knew that she would
And when her patience would thin
You’d let her back in
But not for too long or for good
You were playing head games
At last, She understood
So finally she got tired
And left you alone
Just like she knew that she should
I Can Only Be What I Am & That Was Never Enough For You
I am everything you wanted me to be & so much more…
Yet you couldn’t handle all of me,
Is that why you walked out the door?
You wanted a mother, a wife & a daughter,
I can’t be all three.
I am only one person,
And I gave you all of me.
No Longer Afraid
When you were young,
did you sleep only with the closet door closed because you thought the monsters would get you if you didn’t?
Well now that I’m older I sleep with the door open & I hope that it if the monsters do come they’ll take me with them.
Outlandish
I am the butterfly
flying over concrete
Searching for something
that isn’t there
Now And Then
You tell me now,
all the things I wanted to hear then.
When I read your words
my heart constricts and expands,
and it hurts;
a soft, sweet, gentle pain.
Oh, how I’ve waited
and imagined
constantly thought about these words coming from you.
So much turmoil I am in.
For, at a moment in time I wanted nothing more than to have you say those exact words to me.
But now I cannot repeat them back to you.
I miss you, I do.
I can’t lie, it’s true.
But no longer am I so madly deeply hopelessly in love with you,
as I was then.
Now, I just have love for you.
Seeking
I am the butterfly
Flying over concrete
Searching for something that isn’t there
I Can’t Let Go Just Yet
You know in your arms
is where I wanna be
You opened up your heart to love
but then you set me free
And I don’t wanna be here
so far away from you
But fate is so cruel,
what am I to do?
I miss your voice
and the sounds it makes
when you say I love you
Shit that’s all it takes
to get me
to come running back
You stay running through my mind
like you running track
I question if your legs are tired yet
You ask what do I mean
It’s cuz you stay running through my brain
Like you was Forrest, Green
that mean go
But I don’t wanna leave
Trey Songz, Mario
How do I breathe?
Without you by my side,
without you in my life?
They say I should just let go
But it just don’t feel right
All I want is you,
You’re all (that) I want.
This was written on
December 7th 2013
6:40 PM
Space Station Command; Miscommunication Due to a Down Tower
I’m talking to you.
But you can’t hear me.
You’re in your own world.
Your thoughts silence all conversation I try to have with you.
The more I try the further away from you I get.
So i just don’t try anymore.
Sometimes, very rarely, you’ll venture back.
You’ll look at me with that glow in your eyes and I know I have you.
I know you can finally hear what I’m saying.
And I speak.
I spill my soul.
I tell you everything I’ve been holding in and you hear me.
But just as fast as that moment comes, it goes and you’re on your way back to your planet; where I’m not warranted.
Wondering in Your Cranium
I want to get lost in you
Walk the streets of your brain
See every avenue
I want to know your deepest secrets
I want to know your every fear
I want you to know
That I want to be here
By your side
From your feelings you’ll never have to hide
Because I’ll be right here
For you
I Wish You
I Wish You
could see inside my heart and hear the things it’s says for you..see the way it beats for you,
it longs for you.
I Wish You
had a change of heart and mind
and thought of me,
half as much as I thought of you
& communicated that you were thinking of me.
I Wish You
weren’t so hard to get over
and that I was finally over
being under your spell.
But most of all,
I Wish You
the happy ending you deserve,
the best.
Survivor Finds They Way Always
I don’t know exactly where I’m going…
But I have an idea.
Even though I don’t know the exact location
I know I’ll get there.
I might be lost for now,
but I won’t be lost forever.
I’m not the best at the moment,
that just means there’s room to get better.
I’m already better than I was, years ago,
and I’ll continue to improve, I got years to go.
I might be stuck right now,
but that’s just part of learning.
I’m just practicing now
Cuz soon it’ll be my turn, and
I plan on demolishing
any obstacle that dare get in my way.
All those who bet against me,
Imma make them pay.
Up front,
they gonna give me my respect.
Imma kill ’em softly
as I break they neck,
cuz they doing double take after double take,
“she aint give up yet?”.
Nope,
Cuz I’m a fighter.
Like Destiny Child said
I’M A SURVIVOR.
So you can continue
to throw dirt on my name.
Cuz we both know who’s gonna win
at the end of the game.
ME
You can’t get in my brain
& change the way I see me.
I know why you hate,
it’s cuz you wanna be me.
You so focused on me
you forgot about ya self.
And while I’m getting better you laugh
cuz I ain’t afraid to ask for some help.
I know my weakness
is only not bettering myself.
When I laid out the plan
y’all thought I was being stealth.
No secrets here,
the truth don’t have to hide.
If you ever said I’d fail
then just know that you lied.
Yup,
cuz I’m a fighter.
Like Destiny Child said
I’M A SURVIVOR.
Bed
I was laying in bed writing sad poetry about you when my phone began to ring. I was shocked and admittedly giddy when it was your ringtone that filled my ears. Alright now, play it cool, I thought to myself. I let it ring three times before I picked up.
“Hello?” I said a little too happy.
“Hey…” You sounded as cool as a cucumber.
“Hi…” I replied in a faint whisper, it’s as if all the air in my chest had evaporated.
“I was just calling because…” You begin but start to drift off.
My heart drops. In the background I can hear a voice. It’s a woman. I hear her call out “Baby, are you coming back to bed?”
At that I immediately hang up. I don’t want to hear what you have to say. My heart is broken into even more piece and I didn’t even know that was possible. The pain I felt is now magnified by a million.
My phone begins to ring again. It’s you. This time I don’t pick up. The ringing stops and my phone makes the sound that tells me I have a new voicemail. I don’t dare listen to it. I just lay in bed, writing sad poetry about you.
A Real Surrealist 