I tried picking up the pieces of my broken heart
but they were jagged & cut my fingers
and now there’s blood all over the place
And I can’t see anything but red
or feel anything but pain
and everything feels different
and nothing feels like it can ever be the same
And I just feel insane,
I’m losing it,
slowly going crazy;
tears are running from my eyes
and my mind is getting hazy
I feel so lethargic,
losing all this blood must’ve made me lazy
or it could just be that I just don’t feel like doing anything anymore
Because my heart is broken
and my fingers are bleeding
from picking up all the jagged pieces of my broken heart
You were the Stitch to my Lelo.
But then you got lost & went missing like Nemo.
I was blinded by love,
but I still can’t see tho.
Said you gave me your heart,
guess it got repo’d.
Wish we could go back to the future of our love,
I’m hoping for a sequel.
But no western,
I know you hate that.
Where did our love go?
I want it back.
I only expect you to love me because you said you do
It seems “I love you” means different things between me and you
I can accept the fact that not everyone loves me
But I can’t accept the fact that you don’t
And so I hold on
Hold onto thin air
For you to bring me oxygen in the form of love
Which I not only crave
I’ve fallen in love with your insides
All the beautiful broken pieces
That make you whole
And although I know somewhere there’s a hole or two
I’m more than willing to help you find it and fix it
I’m not too sure if I’m able, but where there’s a will there’s a way
And I want to find that way
Because I feel like you help me find the missing pieces of me
And I would love to return the favor
I would love to hold you
I would love to hug you
I would love to love you
You want to dominate me
Even tho now I won’t submit
I love you so much
something I often wish I could forget
Forget about you
and your beautiful mind
Forget about us
and how you’re not mine.
You say your love for me
But to me your love is
You say you love me
but you show me just the opposite
Got me wising I could cancel my love for you
Put a hold and a stop on it
Your words are just words to me now
with no actions backing them
I’m so sick of playing charades
I no longer wish to pretend
If you really love me
you better start showing
I’ll really be going..
I want to love you
so utterly and whole
But I, myself, am in pieces
And here I am trying to put myself back together
But I need some help
I need some help, and sometimes
Yes, I gave you an ultimatum.
If anyone ever said you weren’t worthy of my time, energy or love I would debate them.
Tell them they don’t know you like I know you
Or how I thought I knew you.
I mean I know I can get a little crazy
But you got a couple screws loose too.
I “was being petty”.
But that ain’t mean you had to turn your back on me.
What happen to enlightenment,
You know deep thought provoking Socrates…
Why was I acting out?
Could I have a need or want for your attention?
Maybe I’m yearning for your love,
Feeling like some times it turns up missing.
Where would I find it?
Where could I look?
Because more times than not
You’re like a phone off the hook.
And all I get is a busy signal
You hit me with a whole Rigmarole.
What am I supposed to feel like
Besides that you want to let me go?
My cries fall on deaf ears
You cannot comprehend my anguish my pain, my hurt
Even if it is you which caused it
I must let it go
this I know, yet can’t seem to do
Some part of me feels if I let it go
then I’ll let go of you too You, the one I want nothing more than to hold onto
But you’re dumbfounded at the emotions that I show
for you it’s far too easy to let go Because you never really hold on to begin with.
Keep your sweet molasses words to yourself.
I don’t like the salty aftertaste they leave in my mouth.
For I have a hunger that your spoken honey cannot satisfy.
What I crave is substance & that seems to be
Something you can’t give me.
Don’t deny my love for you
Why are you doing this?
What happened to you loving me?
What did I do to deserve this?
I have done nothing but try to bring out the best in you,
But you were too blind to see.
Everything you have in you
Is what I have in me.
I turned my back on you
Sometimes I felt you did the same
You know I’ll never forget you
Even if I can’t recall your name
You always been there for me
Even if only in my heart
You know your the one I always want
Even if we are apart
Whether the sun is shining
Or the moon is in the sky
You know what it is, my sweet love
It is only you and I
Doesn’t matter who I’m with
Doesn’t matter where I’m at
We both know my heart is yours
And to you my mind goes drifting back
You’re the only one I want
You’re the only one I need
When you were young,
did you sleep only with the closet door closed because you thought the monsters would get you if you didn’t?
Well now that I’m older I sleep with the door open & I hope that it if the monsters do come they’ll take me with them.